Brynna turns ONE today!!! I can’t get enough of her crinkly nose, dimpled cheek smile, and those piercing blue eyes! This year has been full of ups and downs, little sleep (there IS such a thing as a good night sleep right!? I haven’t had one in over a year, so I’m starting to doubt that it ever existed…), and so much laughter and joy and love I can’t even put it into words! I remember when Wyatt turned one, I was so very sad that the year had flown by so quickly. With Brynna Kate, part of me aches to hold her as a newborn again, but I’m actually more excited for what’s to come! Maybe it’s the 2nd child, but after watching Wyatt really come into his own from age 1 to now (2 1/2), I am truly SO excited to watch Brynna do the same! So, while it’s a tad bittersweet watching her grow up, I am truly so happy to come along side her as she grows, to teach her, laugh with her, love on her, and just be there, soaking up every moment.
A letter to my daughter…
My dearest Brynna Kate,
Today you turn ONE, isn’t that crazy!? I know you’ve been looking forward to this day for the past 365 days of your life, and honestly, I’m truly excited about it too! Every day you are learning something new, trying something different, communicating a bit more, and just enjoying life! I love watching you grow and learn, and one of my favorite things is seeing you clap for yourself when you just KNOW you’ve done something awesome! And those EYES of yours…I don’t know how it’s possible but they get bluer every day!
I remember the first couple of weeks of your life. You were such a quiet, sleepy little baby, and your daddy and I thought that you were going to be a better sleeper, and an easier baby than your brother. Well, it didn’t take you long to prove us oh so wrong! When you emerged from your newborn baby cocoon, you realized that this baby life was not for you – sleep was just a hindrance and annoying nuisance to all the things you feel you must accomplish, and you just couldn’t wait to “grow up” and be able to do all the things your big brother does. You still have yet to conquer a good night of sleep, and your naps leave something to be desired, but watching you scoot/crawl/toddle after your brother, watching you try to do everything he does, makes my heart swell. You’ve waited your whole life to be able to do these things, and you are so HAPPY being able to play!
I know it seems silly to say this today, as you are only turning one, but slow down sweetheart. Don’t miss the joy of the life right in front of you! Enjoy these moments of being small enough that you can walk under a table without hitting your head. Enjoy these moments of being nestled in your cozy crib, safe and sound. Enjoy these moments of rocking to sleep in my lap. Enjoy these moments of learning new things every single day. Enjoy these moments of not having enough hair to get tangled every day ;-). Enjoy these moments of endless spring and summer days spent running/toddling around the yard. Enjoy these moments. (And I may be speaking to myself here too). ;-) Before you know it, you’ll be running around with your brother with no qualms, not even realizing the day has come where you walk without a second thought of losing your balance. Before you know it, you’ll be able to sleep through the night and not see me every few hours (this is a good thing, I promise!). Before you know it, you’ll be racing around on your own little scooter and, if that daredevil personality we think we see is really there, coming in with scraped knees and elbows on a daily basis. Before you know it, tomorrow will be today, and these times will only be precious memories.
There are so many moments from this first year that I will always and forever cherish, and so many things about you that I love. I love how you try to “sing” Jesus Loves Me every single night with me. I love how you get SO excited to see your brother every morning. I love how you crinkle your little nose when you smile. I love that you haven’t lost your dimples! I love how you growl on command. ;-) I love how Wyatt calls you “Ga-Gack”, but that the first time he really tried to say Brynna Kate, it came out Bob-Kat, and that nickname has stuck. I love how you chase Blakely’s tail, giggling like crazy as she wags it away from you. I love how you snuggle up against my shoulder when you are tired. I love how you wriggle and bounce with excitement when daddy comes home every night. I love how you try to build trains, put together puzzles, and go down the slide, just like your big brother. I love how you “help” me with the laundry, taking all the clean socks in and out of the basket. I love who God created you to be, and I love you with all my heart.
You are beautiful, from the inside out my sweet girl, and I am beyond thankful that God entrusted you to us! I cannot imagine our life without you! You bring so much color and vibrance, noise and prayers, love and joy into our lives! Even from this age, I know God has blessed you with a lively spirit and a zest for life! I pray that you will learn how to channel that energy and excitement into your faith and love for others. I know you are destined for great things, my sweet girl, because that is who God created you to be…only YOU can do what He created you to do, and I can’t wait to lead you, teach you, and cheer you on every single day of your life. I pray that these early days, these early years, will be a strong foundation for you to build upon…that your love for the Lord will run deep and true; that your love for others will spill out in everything you do; that you will find your value not in the eyes of others, but in the eyes of God; that your beauty will shine from the inside out; that you will ALWAYS know how loved and cherished you are; and that you will always remember Whose you are.
Happy first birthday my sweet, beautiful little girl. I love you more than words can ever say!
This song sums it all up, and makes me cry every.single.time.